Girls

This is where is all turns around. I step off the train, and onto the busy New York City street. Cars whizzing by, people everywhere, as though nothing and everything has changed. I walk and talk a little slower, but everything there, well it stays the same minus a new restaurant where my old favorite was, and a new rehab bound celebrity on the front of the NY Post.

I'm grown up now. More grown than when I said goodbye over two years ago. I even dress a little differently, of course it took Los Angeles to teach me how to dress better. New York, well, I wasn't really out to impress many there. I'm still not, but that is completely besides the point. I have learned, a good pair of boots make all the difference. 

My goodbye with New York was not an easy one. One that was filled with what ifs, and should I's, and how so's, and I am not readys...in many ways, it completely mirrored my goodbye with Los Angeles. I am a girl that can confidently say, many years from now when I am a stay at home mom, scrambled egg stains on my shirt, and cleaning up leggos from every room of the house: "i lived on both coasts. and have had experiences that most people only dream of." Let's be honest, with a statement like that alone, I will probably never be a stay at home mom, still on the go, experiences abound, kids in tow.

So I trudge through my days, not knowing how long the trudging will last. But feeling, finally after six months of being stagnant, the dog days are over. This is what I have been preparing for. This is it! I learned, I grew up and it is finally time to put all those lessons to the test to see if they and or I fail or succeed. We learn, in time, that it is not about failing or succeeding but rather what we take out of each experience. How we move on from it and use it to our advantage. Take all the good, learn from the bad, and the sum of the equation could be potent. It's how I got to this point, it's how I've always been beginning with being a child and doing just that with my sisters. This theory has stood the test of my 27 years.

So this is it folks. Be ready. Let the winds take you. Because it is January the 25th and it is all happening. All of it. Right now. You are on your way to things you only dreamed, I promise. I can feel it, can't you?

Just a girl, with a new perspective, putting learned lessons to the test, and feeling, finally like it's a new day. I think my new year just began.