The Duke & The King

It is just a date on a calendar and yet, I feel so much pressure from it. As though it's zoning in and watching me, expecting that just because it's changed, I will too. Well, dear little January 1st, it just does not work that way. And you know, I think that's okay. 

We put so much into the idea of "new year, new me". As though the changing of numbers will redefine our lives and re-clarify everything. For actors we hope that in our next year we will join SAG, book more commercials; make some movies; do something, anything. As people in general we hope to get down to an ideal weight. Or to kick that smoking habit (side note...seriously do people still actually smoke?). Or better yet, eat healthier. Then, around the same time next year we hear who's gorging on holiday food and making the same resolutions all over again thus making me wonder, what's the point of our end of the year evaluations?

Why is a date so important? Don't you think we all might be a little more successful in this whole resolution, new year thing if maybe we didn't put a date to it...as in when it should start or end. Instead we just say to ourselves: these are my goals, and I hope to see results in this much time. Maybe a year is too long for some people, which completely screws the system when you think of it. Maybe for some to say, I'm going to lose this much weight this year, 2011, it's just setting them up for failure. Perhaps if on some random day in February that same person said, by June I'd like to lose 17lbs, maybe then this would all go a little smoother.

I personally had a small breakdown on the Eve of the New Year, because in my heart I knew that just because the date was rolling over, it did not mean that suddenly a new job would come my way, and an apartment, and everything I've been hoping for just because this new year is thought of as the thing to change everything else. To wipe the slate clean. A start new. It doesn't really work that way. You can just go erasing everything...

Just a girl, trying to abolish the idea of a "new year", and instead urges you, as well as herself, to set your own personal date for a new year, new goals, and new success!