She & Him

Nothing is coincidence. Everything happens for a reason. It is what it is...but is it?

I've always, in part, believed in fate. The hit television show Lost obviously does, and thus has gotten into my head about such matters. Nothing is an accident. I know all this now...but I'm just wondering at what point it all pays off.

Every moment of my life has led to this point. And tomorrow's point. And the one after for that reason. There's a reason I moved to New York. And then, subsequently Los Angeles, when I had no business going there alone and I could have easily just stayed in New York. There's a reason I've chosen the career of being an actress; why I've dated the people I've dated; why I stopped being vegetarian; and importantly, why I rescued a dog (or two as it were).

For a long time now, I have been convinced that I am destined for something greater. It started somewhere around the time that I had the small dream of acting. I've always felt it. And soon, I believe it's all going to come together. I'm not sure how or when yet, but it will. 

Fate is a curious thing. For instance, let's take exhibit A. A being my current boyfriend. A guy that I have known in some way or another for the last 9 years. First in a math class that we hardly spoke to each other, next being the good friend of his old girlfriend, then reconnecting while I was 3,000 miles away, only to realize that there was a genuine connection, more than just that of an old buddy. There is a reason for this I do believe. 

Or, there how about this acting thing. For all this time I've been home, I've been trying to get "real" full-time work, but I haven't. I just haven't been able to, while I am incredibly qualified for the positions I'm applying for. But then, just like that, after on a whim contacting my old agent, he says he has an awesome agency connection for me in New York....while I'm not sure how this will play out, it's all in the hands of fate and where I'm supposed to be...in the grand scheme of things.

Where we are all supposed to be. Maybe you are meant to be reading this blog. Maybe we don't know each other, but then again maybe we will someday. Or maybe just reading this blog is making you think of your own fate. Your own little details that pull it all together. Kind of like the flash forwards in Lost. 

Maybe our flash sideways will match up. Maybe it's our flash backs for that matter. Maybe none of them will. Regardless, it's all for something. All of it. So use it whatever way possible. To better yourself. To feel. To think. To be. Just be.

Just a girl, with, yes, a belief in fate, and wondering where she will be 6 months from now, and what it's all for.