Wolf Parade

Acting. Who really decides to go into such a ridiculous profession...wait, I can't even call it a profession, because the amount of people out there that call themselves actors, and the slim amount of people that actually do it for money on a regular basis are two very, very different groups. 

Not really sure where it all started for me. Well yes, maybe I do. My fan letters to Tiffani Amber Thiessen and Larissa Oleynik may have been something of a start. I wrote to them to tell them how I wanted to become an actress too and asked how to do it? (Of course if a 13 year old wants an answer to such a question, she's going to go to a professional, am I right?) Let me repeat that...I asked how to do it...how to become an actress? How does one even answer such a ridiculous question other than to say, "STOP! DON'T DO IT! DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! FORGET THAT PASSION! GO GET A REAL JOB!"

But you can't really tell a person that. So, long about the time I was 23 I moved myself to New York City. I had a college degree in Journalism, a year working at a great job at a regional theater, and absolutely nothing that ever should have made me say, "hey, i'm going to move to New York and become an actress".

So I write today, because the question is this: at what point do you (or I as it were) say, "hey, you gave it good run, but you just aren't cutting it. it's time to give up..." Give up. I know. Strong words. But I just hear about so many actors busting their ass running from audition to audition, hoping for the next big break. At what point do you throw in the towel and do something with your life? You must have other passions right?

I thought I was ready to throw in said towel. After moving across the country back to the east, a dream acting job fallen through, I thought, "okay jossie, you tried it. move on". But then after 4 months, I submitted, and got called it, and got a callback....and even that is just enough to get me back out there, everyday, hoping and praying, I get my break. And reading that, it sounds ridiculous.

Just a girl, no longer an aspiring actress, but an out of work actress for sure, trying to find out if it's all worth it, or if it's time to load the car and write the note, and make something else of herself...