Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Lily Allen

You say you are over it. Well all you guys do really. That it's no big deal, that you guys broke up long ago, that you are just friends now, or not, but "nothing to be concerned about baby, i'm yours." All of you say this to calm us down from the fear that you still hold a candle somewhere for your ex. You talk us down when she calls, you even talk us down when she doesn't and we think that she will. But how much of this relies on the fact that we constantly still see her in your pictures and friends pictures of the two of you looking so happy on social networking sites. 

I imagine it was easier before the world became so technologically savvy. Relationships had a bit more solid footing to stand on. It goes back to my post, "Mumford & Sons", in part, I was erased so that the new girl wouldn't feel uncomfortable by my presence. But these days facebook does this thing where you can see friends pictures while you are looking at other albums on the site. More often than not I glance over and see my current boy cuddling up with his ex. Is this really fair for my healthy state of mind, suddenly being crashed from the memories that came before me? Before I ever existed?

You can't go around saying to people "hey, my girlfriend is crazy, take those pictures down!". Let me tell you, I know jealousy. And in the recent year, I have rather controlled and or grown up from having such intense feelings of it. BUT, how can I control such things when the ex just keeps showing up when I'm not even looking! Damn you social networking for making us so linked in that you ruin our relationships! You put ideas in our head! You cause us to be uncomfortable and squirm not knowing what we are going to see, and how it will make us feel and knowing we have the best boy in the world but it's just human nature to feel that twinge of jealousy and wonder each time an old pic of the old star couple pops up! 

Breathe.

Facebook should have a law about such things. Like you can only keep relevant pictures up of the last, let's say 16 months up. No? Irrational? Okay, you win.

If the past is just the past, do we need social networking sites to constantly be reminding us of it?

Just a girl, on a mission to eventually disconnect herself from the world of social networking, to focus on her and her man, and not have the past interfere with her present. 

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